Saturday, June 11, 2005
feeling kinda surreal again... like how all of us r outta sch n leading rather seperate lives.. with no School as a common "base" (for lack of a betta word) where we used to meet almost evryday (not like we had a choice).. but oh well.. this is jus the beginning.. n its already not too bad cos at least almost none of those in my closer circle of frens r gg abroad.. thot i shld haf gotten used to it by now.. but i guess its like kicking a die-hard habit--aint easy at all... realise i'm still kinda child-like tho i'd like to think tt i'm more mature, somehow.. heh.
time sure passes by real quickly when it gets kinda betta.. it felt really long n draggy while i was working.. n now it seems tt it was only yesterday tt i stopped work when i've already had close to a mth's of enjoyment.. i'm kinda missing some ppl.. again.... smtimes i wonder y i feel a certain way.... but there's no point in wondering cos u'll neva figure out an answer..
its been a yr or so but i still miss her.. still kinda rmb tt period of time.. where so many things happened almost simultaneously.. jus glad tt its become the past... come to think of it.. there were quite a number of mis-happenings during my 2yrs of wasted life in jc... but oh well.. i shld jus focus on wat's happening at present n anticipate the future...
Tuesday, June 07, 2005
anyone noe where i can get a new, polished n non-screwy brain with money-back guarantee? cos i think i desperately need to trade mine for a brand-new one.. having this thot precisely proves my point.... oh, n did i forget to add tt brains which r made up of optimistic, non-cynical, non-skeptical n non-convoluted materials r preferred..? n smtimes i wish the brain doesnt rule over the heart.. but i guess this is jus how some homosapiens r built.. its not exactly up to us to decide such stuff, is it? but the heart still does haf its say in things.. n i'm kinda loving wat its telling me.. i guess i jus hafta learn to trust it more.... i noe i can trust it... if only i'm not so affected by unhappy stuff happening ard me.. both in the past n at present... if only "once bitten twice shy" does not exist... if only i din build such a high n mighty wall... but a part of it has kinda been broken down..... n i hope the rest of it wld come crashing down soon... if only i din become so cynical abt stuff... how come i haf this funny feeling tt i'm jus bringing uncalled-for "troubles" upon myself when i shld b happily immersing in wateva i haf now? bah.